I really don't even know where to start. I am just gonna let the words from God flow through me to here. I have had a pretty busy weekend with little rest and sleep. I figured i would be really tired and gloomy today from the lack of sleep and rest, but when I woke up this morning I was feeling pretty good. Praise God for feeling refreshed and pretty good on a Monday morning after a long, and busy weekend.
Well, here comes Satan creeping in little by little somewhere around lunch time. I was a little excited about something that looked well at work, so i made a little sigh about it. When I did, a co-worker heard me and looked at me (wondering what that sigh was all about) so I told her that I liked the way that looked and she said "You finally done something right for a change". She then said, "I was just joking." I really know that it was just a joke from her, but at that time I heard that little voice from Satan saying "See there, you never do anything right" and so much more was running through my mind. Then to follow that, I sent a message to someone asking them if they wanted to do cook hamburgers for supper tonight (if she didn't already have supper plans), being I was already going to be out there doing some other things that we had already planned. And she responded with "Sounds good to me, I don't have any other plans". Well, it was at this time when that small voice came back saying, "She probably really don't want that, she was only saying it sounded good because she didn't want to hurt my feelings or tell me no." and many other things were running through my mind. All this happened around lunch time.
When i got back to work from lunch, I began to feel very discouraged, heavy hearted, so many other negative feelings. I kept asking myself and God, "Why am i feeling like this all of a sudden". Well it wasn't long after that when I was looking through my blog list and came across a blog from a fellow blogger Lysa TerKeurst. http://lysaterkeurst.com/2011/08/you-dont-like-me/. As i was reading this blog, I knew that it was God speaking to me letting me know that this was my problem. I had assumed things by what these people had said to me. They didn't say the words that I "assumed" they were thinking. I was just letting my insecurities (and Satan) kick in and take over my thoughts. I tend to do this alot. This blog just reminded me that I have to quit letting these things take over my thoughts and quit letting it steal my joy.
Here are 3 questions that she asked in her blog that really impacted my thinking:
1. Did someone actually say this or am I assuming they are thinking it?
If they actually said it, deal with it then. If I’m assuming it, that’s unfair to them and unnecessarily damaging to me.
2. Have I been actively engaging with truth lately?
The more we read God’s truths and let truth fill our mind, the less time we’ll spend contemplating untruths.
3. Are there situations or friendships that feed my insecurities?
If so, maybe I need to take a break from these for a season.
Everyone of these questions were eye-openers for me! #2 was a really convicting question. It's time for me to start engaging with the truth so that I will not leave any room for Satan to creep in!
Have a blessed day,